Whats New.

I'm really excited that over spring break I found 4 extra film holders for the 4 by 5 stored away from when I had taken the View Camera class. I showed my parents my recent work and my mom brought up the resemblence of my images to a show I saw at a gallery in Chicago of black and white prints of the variety of different garages many years ago. Of all the museums and galleries I've seen that one still sticks out. Last semester I looked at the work of Jeff Seltzer and his work is kind of what I'm going for with my own. Here are some of his images.

more photos

medium format photos

Ah large format

The tripod didn't fit with the camera. I will have 120 negatives tomorrow but nothing else I assume. I was really feeling good about the work I was doing and now I'm disliking the whole process. I feel so overwhelmed with all the things that I have to do this semester... remembering them and keeping up with everything. I realized yesterday how much I need spring break. I also feel so uncomfortable shooting in the industrial areas when I have to spend so much time setting up the shot. I really could use a friend to be there with me.

Todays Agenda

Today is going to be my first day shooting with the 4x5. The weather hasn't been great lately and I didn't want to risk damaging it but now I'm worried I won't have prints by Thursday. Honestly I'm nervous about going out by myself shooting I wish I had someone to go with me. I looked up the photo tech place in shockoe bottom and that is where I'm planning to take my film. I also will be turning in some medium format film too. I'm not going to go any place new today I'm going to shoot previous locations.

Deadpan Photography

The last crit I was told to look up deadpan photography. I found a defintion in an article in the Boston Globe. The article is called Here's Looking At You.... "engaging yet ambiduous, deadpan photography provides a refuge from emotion in a time of worry" and it is by Greg Cook. It says that "Neutral expressions and cool, head-on compositions have become one of the signature styles of today's art photography. Some have called it deadpan photography: The tone is impassive, matter-of-fact, detached. Often people are posed." Later on in the article it says" Deadpan style is not limited to portraits. Deadpan photography often feels as if its presenting evidence or specimens, rigorously and dispassionately recorded, to study types, structures, forms.

Today- Stressed, verbal regurgitation

Today I had to force myself to blog. I have so many things I need to do and should do and all I want to do is stay in bed. I had a therapy appointment and I went and then I just felt drained and wanted to sleep. I went back to my boyfriends apartment where I'm basically living even though I have an apartment near campus with a roommate and two cats that I feel like I'm neglecting. I stop in every couple of days to scoop the poop and give them fresh water. My roommate gives them food if it runs out. My cats are super social and talkative and are probably driving my roommate insane, but she is getting to pretty much live alone which really is what she wanted anyways.. They crave attention which makes me feel bad for not being there much. I was going to check my email, I couldn't remember when I was suppose to work the bake sale, but before I could I got a text asking where I was because I was suppose to be at the bake sale. Oops, when I signed up I didn't have my calendar with me and forgot to write it down. I had that appointment which would've made me late anyways. So I rushed over to school and couldn't find anyone. I texted Alex and it took about ten minutes to get a text back that they had moved into the fine arts building. I went but pretty much my time slot was over. I stayed for a little bit and decided I was going to bake something to do my part. I went back to my boyfriends and went to bed. At 3pm my boyfriend Daniel calls me and asks what I'm doing. He knew I would be in bed. He works like 12 and 14 hours a day and since I don't pay anything for staying at his place I do the laundry and dishes. I said I would this morning. He gave me a hard time and suggested that I go do my laundry at his ex wife's house. Sounds weird, right? They have to teenage sons together and she is remarried with 3 kids under the age of 7 running around. Daniel used to do laundry over there on his days off or drop it off. He has a great relationship with Rebecca and Ethan, the parents, and I have become friends with them. So I call her and she says to come on over. Its a mad house there, but it helps to be around people, and I try to help up with the kids so I say I'll do my homework if they do theirs. So that is why I'm doing this. Sometimes I just want to have a person to sit in a room with me and have them make sure I stay on task and out of bed. So today I needed to do laundry, dishes, bake sale, pay tuition, go to the bank, talk to my mom, blog, clean up my room, I said I'd bake so now I need to bake, I'm sure I'm missing things I'm just feeling down and drained. I need a shower. I took my medicine pretty much on time today. I just feel overwhelmed there are so many things that I could have done today but just avoided. I didn't want to blog I knew I wasn't going to necessarily be productive but it feels good to vent. Today wasn't a photo day for me. Today was a down day. Hopefully tomorrow I'll feel better.